The Choice is Mine

If I spent as much time coming up with creative ways of living my life than I do spending time on being upset about outcomes or what I should be doing, I would have more fun.

Thoughts can weigh one down. When we live more in our heads, we are leading life from an over analytic way of living. Constantly circling one thought after another. Most times, thoughts from yesterday trying to sort feelings and emotions.

I get weighed down with thoughts so I tend to keep myself overly busy. That way, I have no time to think, other than what I will be doing and getting ready for the next thing.  I like it in a way. It keeps me in the present moment.

This same coping strategy ends up exhausting me and pushes me to the edge so I have to back off a bit and relax. But, I do see that I have found a balance with it. Like today, I chose to sleep in later, hug myself and pull back from social activities.

But, my mind is racing wondering what I will do next.  Who can I get together with? Should I go up north this weekend?  Should I stay home and read? Should I have a dinner party? Go to a movie? What shall I do?  Maybe just run away for the weekend to someplace secluded.  I always want to run run someplace to get away-from my life, from my thoughts. Somewhere different offers me different perspectives.  A chance to get away from things at home that remind me of the thoughts I have.

In mindfulness, they teach us to stay with our thoughts and feelings.  Pushing them away only leads to them constantly coming back, haunting us, resulting them to come back in negative behavior patterns.

I write a lot about thoughts.  My thoughts have haunted me all my life. Sometimes these were friendly hauntings, many times they were not.

I am not my thoughts. I have a choice in what I think. I have a choice in that I can either waste my time thinking of yesterday or give my mind a job of coming up with creative ways of doing, being, living, loving.

I have a choice.

I am not my thoughts.


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From the Diary of a Spiritual Warrior

Throughout my journey, I have developed support tools to aid me during the times in my life that have been challenging.  Lovingly referred to as my “tools of empowerment”, I have found practices that have helped me be strong in the face of adversity, as well as, a sense of courage to face the challenges of life.  Often times, we look outside of ourselves for strength and courage to get through life’s challenges or times of transitions. For me, challenges include self-doubt, depression, anxiety, low self-worth, the fear of rejection and transitioning into something new. Continue reading

What is Freedom?

Written July 4th, 2014. I thought this was fitting for the upcoming 4th of July Holiday-Enjoy.

I contemplated on the thought of freedom all week and took an introspective approach to what being free meant to me.  Our “monkey minds” are the only things that hold us captive in today’s world. All we need to do is shift our thinking to a more mindful awareness and we are set free. Continue reading