Asking for a Partner

Everything I ask for seems to magically appear. But, when its not in the form that I think it should come in, I block it fully coming to fruition with my resistance to what is.

I think, for the most part, this is most people’s problem with manifesting your desires. Things come to you but when its not the way we think they should be, all sorts of ideas and thoughts to it come up in our minds.

This just happened to me. I really desire a guy to do things with. To have fun with, travel with, go on adventures with.  And, one appeared but, it wasn’t the one that I really want because the one that I want is unavailable to me in that way.

So the path of least resistance is the one Abraham says to take.  And, for me, this would be like saying and thinking, “Oh, this showed up?  I guess I will take a hold of it and see what happens.”  I keep remembering being with this guy is easy-conversations are intriguing, he makes me think deep. He is open to trying new things and thinking in new ways. Qualities that are rare in guys my age (or most ages–lol).

I remember holding on in my marriage. Did I think Jim would turn into this prince charming, devoting his undying love for me and telling me that I was the most amazing woman in the world and that he would do anything for me?  I think he loved me in his own way but I never felt it. I never felt special.

I want to feel special to someone.  I want to be the center of someones world. I want to travel and have fun and find new things.  So, there are my desires.  Now, I am going to sit back and see what shows up. xoxoxo

Find a Job You Love

I see people in jobs they do not care for because they “need” the wage it pays.  I see people seek out careers based on the money it will provide because they want to lead a certain lifestyle.  I see people identifying themselves with their careers, working like dogs to get ahead in the corporate world working 60 hours a week.

What if we approached life with the mindset of, “I am going to seek out a job that is fun”   Or “I am going to get a job that pays my bills, gives me money to do what I love and live life, not my job”

I hate to see people suffering in a job they do not like. They feel trapped by the pay that supports the lifestyle they choose to live.

But, this is all a choice.  I like multiple streams of income. I have a rental property and 3 part-time jobs. All of these things I love and make them fun, there is something to capture out of all 4 streams of income.

If you are in 60 hour week job and are happy with it, great, I am happy for you!  If you can’t find a single thing to be happy about other than the pay, please find something else and get out.

Choose a life of fun and adventure. Get creative, think of streams of income that can let you live more freely.

Or you can make the choice of letting your job run you.  Is it really worth the pay?


Live in Today

How many times do you catch yourself thinking of yesterday, last week or even last year?  It is ok to rekindle memories but when we sit and continuously churn experiences and thoughts in our minds, it serves no purpose.  This action tends to spiral into a theme of stories created in the mind that set us off in the present moment of today. This action carries the experience forward and the thoughts follow us, the feelings haunt us and we go into states of sadness.  

I released yesterday in meditation this morning. In bringing my focus to today, in this writing, I remind myself over and over that it is Monday March 6th-a new day, looking for new experiences, cultivating new feelings. Breath into today along with me xo

It is Monday March 6th. I am rooted in the present moment. The experiences, thoughts,feelings and emotions that happened yesterday, will remain there. They are the past and have no purpose in today.

It is Monday March 6th. It is a new day, with new thoughts and new adventures await.  I wonder what will happen today? What does life have to offer me today?  I can’t wait for the day to unfold, to give me surprises at every turn. Life is working for me today.

It is Monday March 6th. Today I breathe the day anew. There is no other day like today. I live my life moving forward into grand adventures, fun and laughter. I wonder, how can I make today more fun? More playful?  I wonder how I can explore today.

It is Monday March 6th. If my life ended today, I do not want to think that I wasted it on thoughts of yesterday. I want to go out like a hurricane of love, fun and adventure.

I am given the gift of today, Monday March 6th, now it is up to me to make the most of it.

The Complaining Stops Here

Should I write this morning about my predominant thoughts? The things that are driving me crazy? Or should I lay down this rainbow and unicorn blog about how to live life?

I know that when I focus on shit that bothers me,  it isn’t doing me any good. Complaining isn’t solving anything or bringing a resolution to what is going on.  In fact, nothing needs to be fixed except my perception of what is.

Here is what it is. I am surrounded by people that are complaining about every little thing-nothing is ever right. The kicker is when they find a resolution to their “major” issue, immediately the next issue comes up to focus on.

Ok, what the fuck is going on here?  These complainers are teachers in my life. The triggers are things that I dislike in myself. Am I complaining?  Not exactly like the people around me, but when reflected upon, yes, I am.  Not to people around me, but in my mind and the story that I am creating which is being projected out in the universe.

I can’t change the world outside of me but, I can change the world inside of me.  I want to attract powerful,positive, upbeat people into my life.  I want people with unlimited visions and who live on rainbow clouds of love.  I want to lead a life of fun, laughter and adventure. Only light energy of love is allowed in my life.

Be the person you want to attract into your life.  xo

On the Path of the Butterfly

Morning Insights

This post is dedicated to my bestie Amanda Litts-you are always inspiring me to stay on the fun filled path of the butterfly-LOVE YOU!!!

I am aligning with the calling of my higher self. I have my butterfly wings on and am ready to float around the world, collecting stories and insights as I go.

Everyone has this unique calling in them. Think about it, is your heart calling you to sit at a desk, analyzing numbers, making sales, providing amazing customer service? Probably not. You are called to express the amazingness in you.

Don’t look to your current friend groups or your family for support-they will tell you that traveling the world on a shoe string budget is absolute lunacy.  Some people think its scary to travel 50 miles out of town let alone around the world.

I have met the butterflies–The people that are soaring on the current of their soul calling. They took leaps of faith. How? Each story is as unique as the individual.

Go out and find the butterflies. They are out there and you will be drawn to one another, even if for a brief moment.  Because the energy exchange between you will provide a spark of motivation to keep flying along on your butterfly path.

You are probably asking, “ok, what the hell do you want to do in the first place? What are these dreams that you keep talking about?”  Here they are in a nutshell people. The things that I wrote up on the left side of the sheet of paper at Kyle Cease’s EOL.

The things that make my heart beat with excitement-listed in no specific order

  • Live life as one continuous adventure of fun and laughter
  • Touch people’s life with yoga
  • Write light hearted stuff on the insights I receive on life from traveling and interactions with fellow butterflies
  • Open a holistic wellness center for healing and soul strengthening (the warrior training institute)
  • Coach people into their amazingness
  • Invest in growing-self growth, soul growth, expanded vision
  • Dance and play my tambourine
  • Play the piano
  • Read a poem in public
  • Love more
  • Paint this fucking life with so many stories, it creates 20 books.
  • Healing retreats
  • Open my grandsons life to unlimited possibilities

Here is a big secret for this beautiful butterfly-I have no clue what I am doing.  I have no clue how to  get where I want to go or bring to life the things that are in my heart. And, I am ok with it. I AM OK WITH NOT KNOWING!!!  In fact, I hope I screw this shit up.  I am on a mission to screw this up-making it ok to mess up, trip up, not get it right, learning as I go and not waiting to find the ‘perfect’ way of doing.

This I do know–I have a lot to do, got my wings on, I am ready to fly.